Perfect time to
give some dawah I thought. Should I, should I not? I fought back my whispers and
my fears and scurried along to the table where the woman dressed in grey several
other women were sitting.
I swallowed. Trickles of sweat had already gathered on my forehead and my heart was beating
faster.
Talk about zero
confidence.
“Err…Hi there,
ladies.” I said unconfidently and pulled our a chair to join the
gathering.
“I’m Inayah and…err..
it’s a pleasure to meet you all.” I stuttered with a huge fake grin on my face.
Really, I was dying inside.
“Oh rite...”
Muttered the woman with the grey, worn out top. “So, whens ma food comin?” I decided
to ignore her rudeness as it would only decrease my confidence and continued an
attempt to spark a discussion in order to decrease the awkwardness.
“I find it truly
disturbing that you have been neglected so much by your community. I mean, how come
you haven’t been provided for?” I spoke the very thing that was on my mind.
“_Ya see…”
interrupted one woman who had just a short, ragged dress on.
“We all come from
diff’rent backgrounds and all ‘ave diff’rent stories.”
I nodded.
“Ma boyfriend
cheated on me, kick’d me out da house ‘n’ left me homeless.”
“Wow.” I shook my
head.
“So, he left you
in the streets to cater for yourself?”
“That’s right ma
girl. And unfortunately, that’s what happened ta many of us.”
“SubhanAllah…” I
whispered to myself.
All the other
women, including the one with grey patches on her face nodded in agreement.
“That’s truly
horrible.”
“You know…” I
began, now feeling more confident due to the frustration that was building up
inside of me.
“Well…in, umm..
Islam, we believe that firstly, a woman is under the care of her husband. He is
her breadwinner, her guardian, her supporter, maintainer and protector.” I felt
my confident growing as I took pride in my religious teachings and beautiful
methods of living.
“_Wait!” I was
interrupted by the woman with grey patches on her face.
“Can I ask why
were ain’t allowed ta sit wiv da men?”
“I’ll, err get to
that.” I said smiling and trying my best to not stutter.
“So…where was I
again?” I gathered my eyebrows.
“Dat a Muslim man
is suppos’d to protect his gal.”
“Oh yes.” I
replied
“Not only that, no
muslim man or woman should commit adultery, nor should he or she cheat on their
spouse.”
“I wish my man
knew that!” one woman shouted.
I just continued
smiling.
“You know why?
Because it breaks hearts, it breaks families, it ruins relationship, and Islam,
it wants to protect the family, and the relationships and society.”
“Wow. I fought
Islam was extreme and radical.”
“Don’t believe all
the media tells you.” I responded seriously.
“So, what else?”
another woman asked seemingly intrigued by what I was saying.
“Islam also
encourages charity, feeding and helping of the poor and treating others the way
you like to be treated. That’s why we are here today.”
“And in terms of
segregation, in our religion we believe that men and women who are not close
family, should not mix as this will cause corruption.”
“What ya mean?
How?”
“We all know what’s
on a man’s mind!” I laughed and seconds
later, realized how stupid I must have sounded when I said that.
“So, Islam don’t
like boyfriend, hey?” asked the grey-patched woman who I found out was called
Cat.
“No. A lot of
cheating and adultery happens because we are scared of commitment and are
unable to control our desires. Alternatively, marriage allows a man and woman
to fulfill their natural desires in a legitimate and legal way and it protects
illegitimate children from being born, as well as partners being cheated on.”
“Hmm. Kinda makes
sense ya know. Never thought of dat.” Cat replied as she folded her arms.
“But so what if I
found a guy in the gatherin’ today! Perhaps I’d av found ma Mister.”
“It doesn’t work
like that! Unfortunately, many times, its not love at first sight, but lust at
first sight. If you fell in love with a guy today, you must be serious enough
to think ahead. What if he became the father to your child? Then what? One
night stands don’t work in Islam.”
“I’ll have ‘im for
a while, then leave!”
“No. That’s where
the problem lies. Sleeping around is not only causing problems such as STD’s
but its breaking hearts, leaving people homeless and destroying our societies
because our kids don’t even know who their parents are!”
“True say.” One
woman agreed.
“You’re a wise
lil’ kid with a mature head on that shoulder” praised Cat who gave me a wink,
which made me feel ever so uncomfortable.
“And your religion
sounds pretty cool if you ask me!” said another woman.
“Yeah. But I ain’t
ready for any spiritual stuff.” Said Cat. “If there were a God, why would He
leave me wivout food for days eh?” I could sense the frustration in her voice.
I paused, thought, and then spoke.
“There’s always a
something positive in every situation, Cat. This life is a test. Sometimes we
go through things, which may perceive to be evil, yet they have some good in
it. We may not realize it, but years later but and surely one day, you will see
the fruits of your patience. God tests us with good and bad days to humble us.
I mean, if God didn’t decree for you to be homeless, how many of us would
sacrifice our time and wealth to come and help the people? It’s a test on us
too. To see if we will help others and give.”
“I see. God is
good.” Said an old woman who hadn’t spoken until now.
“Also, think about
it in this way. If there was no bad in the world, how would we appreciate the
good?”
“God does
everything for a reason. How many of you, since you’ve been homeless have
called out to God in some way, shape or form?”
“Me!” said a few
of them in unison.
“Exactly. So God
wants you to turn to Him!”
“Yeah.. but… if
there was a God, then wouldn’t he help us?”
“Have you asked
Him for help?” I retaliated.
“Yeah, the other
day!” Cat answered quite assumingly.
“Well then, He
answered your prayer.” I smiled and looked all around.
“You’re not only
being fed today. But God has even provided you with a place to stay.”
“What you on
about?” Cat questioned. She raised an eyebrow.
“A little later,
Imam Saaleh will fill you in about the homeless shelters.”
“Oh my. God thank
you!” Cat cheered whilst the others began conversing in excitement to one
another.
“I knew Jesus was
there, will always be there!” the older woman spoke.
“Do you know we
believe in Jesus also?” I quickly added.
“Erm. No. Muslims
hate ‘im.”
“Nu-uh. We just don’t believe he’s God because he
himself says he isn’t. He’s a prophet!” I said joyously.
“Yes, but we
believe Jesus is son of God and I ain’t gonna change for anybody.” Said the old
woman.
“My mum was
Christian. She changed. She lost her son through a miscarriage and that made
her turn to God.”
“Oh I am so sorry
to hear.” Cat said placing her hand on her heart.
“It’s ok. It was
Gods plan.”
“How dya stay so strong,
girl?” said one frail looking, skinny woman.
“Faith in God
sister, faith in God.”
“Inayaaaaah!”
Taymiyyah suddenly yelled rom the far end of the kitchen.
“Come, help me
serve please!”
“Coming!” I
replied swiftly.
“I must go, chat
later. Lovely meeting you all!”
“Awww you’re a
darling. Here take my number.” said Cat.
“Sure.” I quickly
saved her number in my phone and thanked them all for their time.
“Enjoyed the
little chat,” said another woman.
I smiled and ran
off to serve. The delicious aroma of the food was filling the air and I whiffed
it in. I felt full. I hadn’t eaten all day, yet for some reason I felt so
filled and content. The fruits of giving Dawah, I thought.
A few hours later
and everyone had gone. I sat down to take a rest from the cleaning I and the
rest of the team had been doing. After serving, I had chatted a little more to
Cat and some other homeless women and even exchanged addresses so they could
mail letters to my dad’s surgery address, as I knew many of them didn’t have a
phone.
Soon later, Imam
Saleh did a short talk for the homeless, informing them of the new homeless
shelters which had been built. The joy and smiles on those homeless women’s
faces, was priceless.
We had to clean
quickly as the hotel wanted us to check-out before seven, and it was already
half five.
“All done!” Hafsah
cheered.
“Alhamdulilah.
Everything is squeaky clean.” Ameerah jumped up.
“Time to head home then, I guess.” Added Taymiyyah who flopped onto a nearby chair. “What a day.”
“Its been
amazing!” Aiza added. “The homeless women were sooo inspiring!”
“I know right. I
got to slip in a bit of Dawah too.” I informed them of my conversation with Cat
and they all prayed for her guidance.
We all exchanged
hugs and went outside to see the Manchester sisters off.
“Aiza, you gotta
keep in touch!” I emphasized. “Gotta, ok!”
“Of course!” she
responded laughing at my pleading.
“InshaAllah.” I
hugged her tightly remembering the personal memoir she had share with me.
Sitting in
Taymiyyah’s car and waiting for Abdullah to load our boot, I couldn’t help but
feel so grateful for an amazing two days. So much had happened. From Uncle
Najm’s tear-jerking speech to Aiza’s inspiring tale and Rimsha’s sudden loss. The
Dawah to Cat and her friends, and the opportunity to meet with Zohra Sarwari…I
couldn’t thank Allah enough.
I smiled as I
leaned on the car window. Although, I felt so content and happy, something was
tugging at me and I just couldn’t put a finger on it. I felt like the events
that took place in these last two days were leading up to something and Allah
was preparing me for it.
“Inayah?”
Taymiyyah popped up from the front of the car.
“Err.. yes?” I
jerked up.
“Uncle Najm wants
us.”
“Oh, okay. I’ll be
there in a sec.”
“Ahh..here she
is!” Uncle Najm exclaimed.
“Sorry” I
squeaked.
“Ok, so great work
this weekend MashaAllah. You all have been fantastic. May Allah accept it from
you. Your reward is with Allah.”
“Ameen.” Taymiyyah
replied.
“I’ve just got
something small for you as a way of thanking you for your efforts over these
past few years. Keep it. Treasure it and most importantly, let it always be a
reminder for you.”
“Close your eyes
and put out your hand”
I closed my eyes,
clenching them tightly but then had overwhelming urge to just open them, and I
did. Taymiyyah was going around handing us girls something whilst Uncle Najm
was handing the boys their gifts.
“Now open.”
I quickly yanked
open my eyes and glanced at the box in front of me. It was a beautiful gift box
wrapped in a pink ribbon.
As I slowly lifted
the lid, my first glance fell on the stunning pink Swarovski pen, which had my
name, engraved on the side. Besides it sat a key-ring, and on it was
personalized a message.
“Sister Inayah,
the Ayesha of this Ummah. May Allah raise your rank and reward you for your
every effort and your every moment spent in helping others. Remember, actions
are judged by their intentions, so always keep a beautiful intention.”
May you do your
parents proud.
Your Uncle, Najm.
22/7/2011
By the time I
finished reading, my eyes were filled with tears. I lifted my head to gaze at
the others, and like myself, they were all so touched by the expensive and
thoughtful gift.
“I..I…you.
Seriously, you didn’t have to!” Abdullah broke the silence struggling to
articulate his thoughts into words.
“This is too much.
We don’t deserve this.” He added.
“Uncle Najm!”
Inayah leapt to hug her uncle. “This is the best gift EVER!!”
“Ditto” I added.
“I can’t believe it. Definitely one of the best gifts I have ever received.” I
swallowed, trying hard to fight the tears. They all knew what a waterfall I
was.
“Don’t be silly”
Uncle Najm chuckled. ‘Its nothing, seriously!”
“Even I like it!”
joked my annoying brother Suleiman.
Everyone burst out
laughing.
“Alhamdulilah.”
Uncle Najm nodded his head. “Taymiyyah got one too!” he wrapped his arm around
his sister’s shoulder.
“Thankyou, Bhai.”
“Anyways, enough
of this soppy talk. Lets head home!”
“I feel sick.” I
said as I sat at the back of Taymiyyah’s car. For some reason, we had only been
fifteen minutes into driving and I felt so nauseous.
“Whatsupp?”
Taymiyyah questioned glancing at me from her front mirror.
“I just feel
unwell.” I muttered.
“Do you want to
stop at the service station?”
“No, I think I’ll
wait till we get home.”
“I’m feeling the
same.” Inayah slipped in.
Taymiyyah sighed.
“Why all this damn
traffic?” Taymiyyah banged her steering wheel as she pressed down at her
breaks.
“Where is Uncle?”
Inayah asked stretching over the bonnet to try and get a better view of cars in
front.
“He went ahead of
us ages ago.” I said slouching back in my seat.
Suddenly, we heard
the sound of two zooming police cars.
“Move to the hard
shoulder! Quick!” I jolted up at an attempt to get Taymiyyah’s attention.
She swerved the
car into the hard shoulder as two racing police cars drove by.
“Oh no. Let me
ring Uncle Najm, he might know what’s happened!”
I felt a sudden
knot form in my stomach. I swallowed hard and panic began overcome me.
“Why is his phone
dead?”
“I just range
Suleiman, his is off too.” I said with fear in my tone.
“Abdullah?...
Abdullah?” Taymiyyah yelled into her phone but that too went onto voicemail.
“What if… if
they’ve been involved in an accident?” my voice was quivery and I was shaking. I
don’t know why but I felt like something was going to go drastically wrong
Something within
me told me that Uncle Najm, Abdullah and my brother were in big trouble. From
the moment I left the university to now, a slight feeling of uneasiness was
tugging at me that not knowing why, made me sick to the core, and now it had
become apparent.
“Chill, it can’t
be…” Ameerah shook her head her husky voice showed that she too was afraid.
Just seconds
later, a helicopter appeared above us and landed just a few kilometers away
from us on the other side of the road.
“Oh my…” Taymiyyah
jumped out her car and raced to the helicopter, following their trails.
Myself and Ameerah
also hurdled outside.
Ameerah was
breathing so heavily, I had to hold her close to me.
That’s when we
caught site of the Motorway sign which read ‘Accident ahead in lane 1. Traffic
at standstill.’
“I have a bad
feeling, Nai…”
“Me too…” Ameerah
buried her face in my shoulder.
“What’s going on
girls?” said a male driver was smoking a cigarette in his car; puffing out
smoke in the direction of our faces.
“We don’t know.”
“Do you think we
should go see what’s going on? Taymiyyah’s been gone a long time?” I asked
hastily. I felt as though I was going to faint.
“No, we can’t
leave the car unattended.”
“I’ll go and I’ll
come back for you, ok?” I placed my hands on Ameerah’s shoulders and told her
to breathe and relax and that we were just panicking for nothing.
As I walked
further to where Taymiyyah had followed the helicopter paramedics a looming
feeling of dread began to overcome me. In the distance I could see shining
lights. Two ambulances, two police classes and then… that’s when I saw her.
Taymiyyah.
Standing besides an officer with her hands cupped over her mouth. She was
crying.
Weeping.
My eyes darted
around and suddenly I caught sight. There it was, Uncle Najm’s grey van. It was
crushed. It was in such a state that my words couldn’t even describe it. Behind
it was another white car, it too was in a mess.
I wanted to
scream. I wanted to run to Taymiyyah and burst into tears. But my heart was
beating so fast, so fast, that I soon lost sense of what was going on. A
churning feeling was travelling all across my belly and my head felt heavy.
Like a ton of bricks were weighing it down. I wanted to just drop there and
then, to just run to the car and to see my brother, and hug him so tight. I so
wanted to say the words I had just recited front he Qur'an just two days ago. “Indeed to Allah We
belong and indeed to Him We shall return.” But no. Everything around me became
a big massive blur. I must be dreaming. My surroundings were swerving from left
to right. I wouldn’t’ and couldn’t believe what I was seeing. Maybe it wasn’t
true and just an illusion. The hovering sound of the helicopter soon
disappeared with me as I fell, fell onto the same road my brother’s, uncle Najm’s
and Abdullah’s body lay.
“Inayah!” A
familiar voice echoed in my ears as I slowly lifted open my eyes. I stared
ahead of me, at the pale blue wall in front of me. The window ahead of me was
open and the sound of birds were chirping outside. For a moment, I thought I
had awoken from a bad dream, but as I turned my painful head to the right, my
eyes froze as I stared up at a tall familiar figure. It was Ummi.
“Inayah! Oh Inayah
sweety!” she screamed as she rested her head against my chest. I didn’t know
where I was or what was going on, but as I rolled my eyes around the room, I
realized, that I was in fact in hospital, on a hospital bed.
“U-u-umm-i-i.. “ I
struggled to speak as I lifted my weak arms around my mothers neck. She quickly
jolted up and wipe the tears which I hadn’t realized were dripping from my
eyes. I felt so numb so stiff.
“Oh, Alhamdulilah
you’re ok babe!” she wailed.
“Its ok, Salman is
fine, he’s in the room next door. He’s fine. Don’t worry. Just relax and I’ll
fill you in about it all later, ok?” My mum spoke so fast I had to concentrate
hard on what she was saying.
I breathed.
“It’s going to be
ok my darling.” My mum rambled on. She lifted my hand and gave it a kiss on my
hand.
“Your dads on his
way.”
I felt so
pathetic. Here I was sitting in a hospital bed with my mum yapping on in front
of me and yet I couldn’t utter a word back.
“Are you ok?”
I glanced at my hand,
which had been wrapped in a bandage and nodded my head.
It was not only
till an hour later that I could finally say something. My body was in such a
shock that I had forgotten how I had even arrived at the hospital. However,
after a little thought I remembered and then it hit me.
“Mum, mum!” I
screamed. “Where’s Suleiman? And Ameerah and Taymiyyah? Oh Ummi, are Uncle Najm
and Abdullah ok?” I was shaking and didn’t realize it until ummi came and
calmed me down.
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